Daddy, come with me!

I told him
I told him my truth

I opened my arms and shared my heart
I gave him what he took away from me
Yin and Yang of a father and his son

I told him
“I dreamt of you
This time not so happy
This time not so cheerful

This time, I was in pain
I woke up screaming in the middle of the night
And it wasn’t only once

I am tormented
I scream every night
When I see it again
And again and again

When I see you
Taking from me without permission
Taking from me when I most needed you
Taking my right
Taking my right to my body away
Away from me

Pressing your chest against my back
Kissing the back of my neck
With heavy breathing below my ears

My tears didn’t stop you
My pain didn’t stop you

My NO did not work
On you”

He said I don’t deserve
He said I am a son of a bitch

He said he sacrificed
He said he loved me

And that I don’t debate
And that I know is true

If he ask around

I tell everyone
My father taught me love

My father taught me love
My father taught me love

My father taught me a certain kind of love

I told him
“Pressing your chest against my back
Kisses down my neck
Heavy breathing below my ears

Were you as terrified?
Of the crazy mother behind the door?
Beating me down with your belt…
Breaking glass on my head…

A child of six
Lost in the torment
Of the mad home that you have built

You say you love me
And abuse me?
You say you sacrifice
And you only take from me?”

And so I told
I just did
I told him

“Daddy, you are not ok
Daddy, you left me in utter pain
Daddy, you sucked every good out of me
Daddy, I am only now free from you

Daddy, I came back and chose you
Daddy, I give you my light

The single torch I found in this darkness you birthed me into

Daddy come with me
To the world of light
Take my hand
And we will walk the eternal path to heaven
Where we stand with our heads straight
All proud of how far we have come

As the lord in heaven has promised us

A land of freedom
A land of peace
A land of hearts dancing together
A land where our hearts shine on one another

Daddy,
Come with me

I just told
I just did
I just said